I should just kill myself and be done with it, but it would be so rude to my family to die on Thanksgiving, I wonder if they will think of that to be thankful for? The fact that their broken son keeps pushing on for their sake. I am a lost and broken man. I don’t think I’ll update this blog anymore but deleting it seems stupid. Here is the last entry my followers will see, and most of them won’t even see it anyway. Today I broke up with my girlfriend because she was clingy in ways I couldn’t deal with, I’m just not made for relationships, despite how I crave human love. I have nothing to live for now. Every thing I touch seems to turn to ashes and then blows away in the breeze, maybe if any of you are local you’ll see me in the obituaries in the weeks, months, years to come when I can finally end it all in a last selfish act. I hope I’m brave and strong enough to do it eventually, but for now I’m just too weak to accept how much it would hurt the few people who care. I should try to put on a brave face for them, but i just can’t. I hate hurting. I hate hurting other people. I just wish I could blink out of existence like an old light bulb flickering out. Maybe one day I’ll be strong enough to let go. Maybe one day. No tears were shed, i am unable to cry, no matter how much certain things hurt. I wish you all the best of luck.
Goodbye and thank you for following.